greedy pig!!!

2008-05-14T01:58:00.000-07:00

dun see, dun hear, dun feel anythin...

下定决心放弃是我最后的选择，但我却根本办不到。。。一件表面看起来如此容易的一件事，但我做不到。逃避与面对，我的选择为何如此矛盾，在面对的同时却又在逃避。。。每天的过去使我看得更明白，更清楚，因为所看到的东西不会说谎。

why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? 为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？

2008-05-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

"nothing gold can stay..." this is so true, so true...
fragile friendships...sometimes i rather they dun exist...sometimes i rather i dun hv them... what's the point??? they juz bring u problems n agony because u juz care too much,think too much when they dun even care... reasons after reasons, excuses after excuses...no more please...i believe dat no matter how much i try to convince myself in understandin all the reasons given there's a limit dat one has... i'm alrd stretchin this elastic band in me...how much more do u all think i can stretch??? why do things always turn out like that...?

i'm not so great...i'm human too...a normal human being...i hv my own problems, my own emotions too! who understands...? haiz...sighs...

心寒。。。我不知道我还能做什么来挽留，挽回这一切。。。理由，借口，我都听腻了。我的极限又在哪里？朋友。。。这两个字的意思又是什么？在我生活里到底又存在这几个呢？

what's the point in puttin in effort to keep this relationship goin when ppl dun even try...friends... a word that seems so near, so close to your life, but yet...it is something so distant, so cold, so far away... is this how things shld turn out? o is it juz me???

my life is in a mess! i'm tired...how i wished dat i'll have a neverendin sleep...a sleep till eternity...

2008-04-26T16:30:00.000-07:00

星星在天上写诗，浪漫到放肆
嘴角的吻还微湿，我害羞掩饰
我调整了我坐姿，假装更矜持
你的紧张，你的攻势，就像个孩子
你把，我喝完的可乐，拉环当作戒指，轻轻套上了我小指
你问，能不能一辈子，那一秒突然爱上了你傻傻的固执。。。

我不要你解释，我不要你发誓，我只要你记得此刻你眼里我的样子
爱我不要解释，爱我不要发誓，这一刻到世界末日让我们一起把爱，活成最美最美的钻石。。。

你把平凡的日子，变成纪念日
永恒变成未来事，男孩变王子
我不要有大房子，也不要大宝石
我会珍惜，可乐戒指，永恒的小事
你用，吃完的糖果纸，那是你的方式，默默地写下你发誓
你说，保护我一辈子，那一秒突然看到了你背后的双翅。。。

我不要你解释，我不要你发誓，我只要你记得此刻你眼里我的样子
爱我不要解释，爱我不要发誓，从此刻到世界末日让我们一起把爱，活成最美最美的钻石。。。

《梁静如：可乐戒指》

2008-04-21T20:33:00.000-07:00

will you ever be able to put that smile on my face filled wif tears, juz like u used to? 就连我看到的背影都似乎变得越来越遥远。。。

the familiar figure that puts the smile on ur face...treasure it... when one day u find that the smile has faded away, it is time to let go...

2008-04-17T23:11:00.000-07:00

bloggin time again!!! 2day's a special day! cos it's my 18th b'dae!!! haha...lolx...

would like 2 say a realli BIG THANK YOU to EVERYONE!!!

Kaiying, Wing, Jac, Anandhi, Dolores, Lao ba, Mer, Nee Huai n Yia Chin...Thx 4 the whole BIG BAG OF FOOD!!! haha...lolx...i think i'll be 'piggin' out all the time thse few days! XD...

OG18! u guys r so sweet!!! quite surprised when i received msg fr almost ALL of u!!! gandong...O.O...

HOUSE EXCO!!! dat was a great surprise! onli left abt 10-15 mins of common lunch break left n u guys stiu waited until my dance class ended 2 celebrate my bdae!!! gandong...O.O... the cake was nice! (see...piggy me again...XD) despite the cream on my face, even though it was a short session, but it was fun n memorable!!! all of u r a great bunch of super enthu n fun lovin ppl! we'll cont 2 strive tgt n work ourselves towards greater heights eh! JIAYOU! HOUSE EXCO, GO, GO, GO!!!

NEVER 4GETTIN THE GRP OF PPL!!!... MIIC! YT! WOONIE! WEN! SH! MUI! LOVE ALL OF U GUYS BIG TIME!!! <3... thx 4 everythin n all the wishes!!! even though we may be in different schools, diff classes, but we'll always be tgt ritex! muz always keep in contact no matter wad happens k! LURVE U GUYS!!! <3...haha...lolx...XD...

DAWEI! realli like dat prince voodoo! haha...lolx... n to my whole family... for the super big mango cake filled with lots n lots of MANGOES!!! haha... super yummy!!! [woah! realli think its v pig leh! XD...]

last but nvr the least, to ALL MY FRIENDS who remembered (o nvr remember) this day, THANK YOU 4 all the wishes, thoughtfulness, jokes, hugs, gifts, etc etc... it's becos of these small little things dat all of u did dat will make me rmb this day 4 a very,very,very long time... it's all these small little things that make a GREAT N MEMORABLE day so meaningful n worth rememberin... U GUYS RAWK!!!<3...

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!! haha...XD...

2008-04-05T23:16:00.000-07:00

If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again...

It sounds so simple, but yet so difficult... Can i do it? Doubts...

2008-04-04T23:02:00.000-07:00

一个人的眼睛是会说话的。。。从眼神中所看到的表情骗不了我，因为我知道时间不会倒流，时间不会停顿，时间更不会加快让我看到任何的未来。。。眼神里看到的逃避，失望，一切的改变都令我很难受，因为我不知道要怎么去面对所有的改变。。。迷失在一片忙碌的事物中，我似乎找不到出口。不敢再前进，因为害怕又会失败。。。不管再努力似乎都没有用。。。一个眼神，会多恐怖，多可怕。。。

2008-03-21T20:58:00.000-07:00

too many things have happened within this short period of time...i'm gettin more n more confuse, more n more lost as each day passes by...things haven't been happenin the way i've wanted them to be... setback aft setback, disappointments aft disappointments, failure aft failure...sometimes i wonder why am i puttin in so much so much effort in doin somethin...is it realli worth it? are some things realli destined to be in the state dat it shld be in, no matter how hard u try? is there no turnin back aft sayin some things dat u felt dat u said wrongly?

why do i let chances juz slip pass my fingers all the time? why do i feel inferior when compared to u everytime? why do i even make myself feel this way when i put the 2 of us side by side... we started at the same spot, but now, u're shinin so high above while i'm stiu strugglin wif me, myself at the bottom...I HATE LIVING IN YOUR SHADOW! why did i even wanna give u the opportunity dat was supposed to be mine? why do i feel so not confident when i think of u? dat was a rare opportunity, but i gave it to you..."no one should make u feel inferior when compared to them" but why do i feel so small when u're ard...why do i feel so insignificant when u're mentioned...sometimes it realli makes me wonder if i shld hate u...but... ... ...

some may wonder why do i even care so much, why do i even wanna bother abt ur existence, why do i even wanna put u in comparison wif myself...i dunno why but i juz cant help it! ppl seem to rmb u, u n onli u when we're put tgt...why do i care? becos u're my FRIEND, a friend whom i TREASURE... but it's aso because of u dat made me feel so unseen, so unwanted, so non-existent...its because of u dat ppl onli recognise ur efforts n wad abt mine, all flushed down the drain...WHY? because everythin dat we do, u do it better than me n no matter how hard i try in tryin 2 get into the same position as u, i fail...every failure made me wanna win u even more! even if it is onli once...but the harder i try,failure feels even harder...i put on a front as though nothin has happened in front of everybody, but do u noe wat's goin thru me everytime we're bein put tgt and compared to by ppl?

I'M SICK OF THIS! but... ... ...

2008-02-28T17:45:00.000-08:00

i'm such a useless dumb idiot...for all the faith dat u had in me, i let u down...for all the encouragement dat u gave, i disappointed you... for all the things dat u taught me, i dashed ur hopes... for everythin dat happened 2day, it sucked. i'm juz utter disappointment...

2008-02-20T23:47:00.000-08:00

seriously turnin into a pig...dunno how cum recently so weird...keep eatin n eatin like pig liddat...haiz...sian...so here's wat i've been eatin for the pass 2 days n 2day...fattenin junk food (mostly)...a pig will always remain a pig(referrin 2 myself)...lol... juz sit down at the table n eat for 1-2 hrs...i seriously think i'm crazy...

18 February 2008, Monday, Dinner

1 big plate char kuay tiao wif extra chilli n dark sauce
4 cream puffs
1 red bean bread
1 sambal prawn bread
1 pack of julie's cheese crackers
2 small bars of toblerone chocolate
1 pack of milk flav hello panda

19 February 2008, Tuesday, Dinner

1 bowl of mince pork noodle
2 packs of julie's cheese crackers
1 pack of chocolate wafer (the Loacker kind)
7 packs of want want rice crackers
5 ferrero rocher
1 chupa chups cola flav lollipop
1 snickers bar

20 February 2008, Wednesday(today), Dinner

1 big bowl of laksa (includin ALL the gravy)
1 big pack of potato chips chilli flav
2 packs of julie's cheese crackers
3 packs want want rice crackers
1 BIG bar of toblerone (i think is 250g one...)
half a box of cherry tomatoes
2 bunches of seedless grapes
5 cadbury chocolate bites

guilty until cannot guilty alrd...eat n eat n eat... OMG! cannot stand lor... whole day emoin aso dunno why...i think i turnin into a crazy person alrd la...ARRGH!!!... even my entry makes no sense...haiz...

tmr got maths test!!! dunno if can pass o not lor...haiz...scully ltr hand in blank script i die la...26 MORE DAYS TO BLOCK TEST!!! OMG...IT'S GETTIN NEARER N NEARER! N I'M NOT PREPARED AT ALL! dunno how 2 survive...haiz...SIGHHHHH...

2008-02-08T22:47:00.000-08:00

time for update!!! ~~

1 mth pass alrd! so fast...now is CNY le...n nxt mth is BLOCK TEST!!! OMG...sian... recently, it has been tutorials lectures, tutorials n lectures n more tutorials n more lectures! n as every day passes by, it gets nearer n nearer mid yrs, then prelims, then A LEVELS!!! wonder how i'll cope wif everythin...

for the pass mth, it has been fun for the start n its gettin more n more stressful... OG18! U GUYS ROCK! i'm lookin forward to our bbq on 16 feb! haha... thx for the card eh! touched...gandong...O.O... even if any of u guys wont be stayin in ny, but muz stiu keep in contact ok! hv hols dat time muz meet up hor...haha...

aft orientation, its GAMES DAY! plan until i stress lor... all the dark rings n nightmares...woah... damn horrible de can...1st time chair major event leh... it has been a great learnin experience despite all the stress that has to be undergone...but overall, it has been ok... GAMES DAY, A SUCCESS... the 满足感。all the effort n hard work has been paid off... it was worth it afterall... i dun regret havin puttin in so much effort into it... HSE EXCO! WELL DONE! JIAYOU!!! nxt thing dat we'll be plannin for will be for the elections n camp! jiayou wor!

currently, its the long wk end of CNY mood...i'm eatin too much n turnin into a pig!!! OH NO!!! 减肥，减肥，减肥! MUZ LOSE WEIGHT!!! aft CNY, go back sch, CHEM TEST! arrgh...so irritatin... then 2 days ltr, it'll be valentines day n aft dat...GP PRESENTATION... haiz... this is j2... A LVL, MOST IMPT!

okok...enuf of all my complaints n updates... now is time for pictures!!! enjoy...

CNY eve @ AMK hub

OG18 goes fishing @ fish n co.!lolx

outside bugis arcade...

shijie, farah, me n rachel!

OG18 celebrates chris bdae!

OG18!

HESTIA OGLS!

orientation 1 OGLs n SC...

eye stare! whose eyes bigger???

ian n me...^_^

2007-12-31T23:40:00.000-08:00

woah! blog dead for so long liao...now muz update! haha...lolx... so now's the last post of the year!!! tmr it'll be 2008!!! n wed will be the sian time when sch reopens! but fun cos got orientation!!! haha...lol...XD...

as usual, my hw is stiu in a mess...haven do much, less say finish... so tmr need CHIONG whole day 2 finish as much of it as i can! think will do until i cry, until i die lor... lolx...

reflectin upon all dat has happened thruout the yr...relationships among ppl, friendships, problems, obstacles, solutions, understandings, all the sad n happy moments, misunderstandings, etc etc...all these happenings make me grow up a lil more every yr...

this yr has been one where i think i'm like so diff as when i was in sec sch... dunno if anyone'll agree???

JC is so TOTALLY diff fr sec sch... diff lesson styles, diff ppl, more hw, more commitments n definitely more stress! another yr has passed so quickly! new friends, new teachers, new knowledge, new challenges...nxt yr, everythin will start buildin on once again... preparin for a brand new beginning... or is it the continuation of what i've gone thru for the pass 17 yrs?

a new 2008...will i get what i hope for? will certain things make a turn for the better for me? will i finally see the light dat i've been hopin to see? hopes, wishes, dreams...are they possible? will they happen?

A LEVELS!!! the one dat determines my future? is dat realli true? nxt yr will hv no time for slackin at all!!! but a slacker like me where 2 find motivation 2 study? force...forcin myself 2 study n revise n do hw is torture...haiz...but wat 2 do...there's no turnin back since i made the choice... so juz JIAYOU bahx! to all my friends out there, KEMPATEH!!! 加油!

我所拥有的一切我都会紧紧地把他握住，不会轻易地松开手。把美好的回忆牢牢记住，把不愉快的一切都当成是学习，成长的一部分。懂得往前看，不要原地踏步，那么就不会错过学习的良机。为自己争取想要得到的东西，不然错过时后悔就来不及了。默默地支持你，就算你没发现，那也没关系，因为我知道不告诉你是对的。至少你不会拒绝我，那么我们还能够做朋友。对我所有真心的朋友，一声“谢谢”不足以说出我所对你们的感激。因为有你们，在我伤心与快乐的时光里都有着你们的陪伴。因为有了常在我身边的你们，我才有勇气在交叉点做出选择，面对眼前的挑战。明年将会是很累，很辛苦，很疲惫的一年。但我相信，只要有着坚定的毅力，我会把明年过得多姿多彩，找到自己能够走的一条路。

2007-12-12T20:39:00.000-08:00

my hands goin 2 break soon le!!! carry my heavy qin 2 sch n home 2day carry until 半条命 almost gone lor... super heavy! n i jus realised dat 2day not the last day of hols dat i need 2 go back 2 sch...haiz... last wk of dec aso need go back...haiz...

2day go sch in the morn 4 chem lesson... then aft dat stay in sch teach my juniors how 2 play 十面埋伏... teach for like 5 hrs liddat juz finish half of it onli la... n i long long time nvr touch dat song liao 2day suddenly need teach them how 2 play suddenly strain my hand... i guess tmr sure hand ache de lor...juz now use a bit force onli my hand ache n pain liao...haiz... need 2 start trainin my hands again le...if not it'll onli get worse n worse...

seriously need 2 train up again...if not nxt time teach them the nxt half of the song dat time i confirm die de... n ask them go home 练琴 then i ownself dun 练 makes it look as though i'm evil...lolx...

2007-12-10T23:45:00.000-08:00

once again touched my hw again 2day n completed another 1 % of it onli!haiz...wonder when i can complete them lor...sickening... so total amt of hw done now is onli a pathetic 3%...

2day prac pipa for 1hr plus...cant believe i actualli touched my pipa again aft so long!!!haha...lolx...realised dat i've deproved tremendously by alot alot alot le!!! although in sch got play, but diff type of prac method...muz start prac again!!!!!lolx...

sms exploded by abt 400 liddat liao this mth...die le die le... haiz...sure kenna scolded de lor...sianz...

wed last day need go sch le!!! yeah!...but thinkin of luggin the damn heavy qin 2 sch i sian diao aso... heavy leh! n my dad cant fetch me 2 sch...haix... so carry myself then take the long bus ride then cross the overhead bridge then walk 2 sch...i think reach sch i half dead le lor stiu go 4 lessons...arrgh!!! who can help me carry qin 2 sch!!! sian leh...lols...

2007-12-04T23:59:00.000-08:00

nothin 2 blog 2day...sian... so 2day will be eeyore's photo shoot! haha...lolx...

eeyore shy...lolx...

2 eeyores! haha...lolx...
cute little eeyore on my bed...XD...

eeyore's balancing act! o.O...

turtle surfin eeyore...

flyin eeyore...haha...

2007-12-03T21:12:00.000-08:00

cough, stuffed n blocked nose, tearin eyes, stiff neck, etc... feelin so horrible now...

2007-12-03T16:51:00.000-08:00

will eatin pills n medicine make me feel better? why do i hv a feelin dats its makin me feel worse??? even drinkin warm honey doesnt help anymore... shit la...how! stiu hv so many thinds 2 do leh... haiz... nvm, i shall see wat's on BFB dat will cheer me up ltr...o will anythin be able 2 cheer me up at all?

little bro cumin back tmr! haha...lolx... surprisingly, i dun really feel anythin in his absense, though sometimes i'll juz think of if he's ard wat will he be doin now...does this make me a bad sis? ok...stop thinkin of such silly things la... i bet he's havin a great time there bahx n probably not thinkin of home at all...haha...lolx...

it's abt 10 mins till 5pm! i shall go get my popcorn honey stars n wait in front of the tele! though i noe i'm not supposed 2 eat such stuff, but if i keep restrictin myself 2 wat i can eat n wat i cant eat, wont dat be terrible! erm...ok la... but it'll be quite awful 4 me...XD...

2007-12-02T23:42:00.000-08:00

flu, runny nose, flu, runny nose, FLU, RUNNY NOSE! cant stand it le! i think my nose goin 2 drop off soon... used up 2 boxes of tissue 2day...haiz...sian... becumin rudolf liao la...go sch see me dat time will see me wif a red, stuffy n runny nose... n i'll keep sneezin... so muz prepare lotsa tissue paper...haha...XD...

cont doin my hw again n guess wat! i finished another 1% of it onli! seriously...it will really take me 100 days to complete 100% lor...98% more 2 go! jiayou!!!lolx...

no pics recently cos dunno why my stupid phone cant get linked 2 the com so need 2 wait 4 my little bro 2 cum back then can transfer all my pics... till then it will be pictureless posts...

等待是一件很痛苦的事。。。但有时等待却是值得的。。。我的等待是痛苦，但会值得吗？

2007-12-02T00:06:00.000-08:00

5 days of com all to myself! usually this time my bro will be usin the com de...but, he's not ard! haha...lolx...unlike me, the lucky n fortunate him has gone overseas...me leh! hv 2 stay in s'pore the whole hols! sian...even end of year de shoppin trip 2 KL aso cant go liao...haix... nvm...dun think of the unhappy happenings...

dunno wat has got into me recently...i've been thinkin alot abt lotsa things dat hv happened...sometimes i wonder why do i even think of them...mayb dats me bahx...always living in my own world... 想把自己放开，但又却自我封闭。。。矛盾，矛盾。。。

there's somethin dat i fear dat will most probably happen, but muz i face it alone? deep inside me, i noe dat i hv no will at all to face it. no courage, all fears... facin it alone is tough... stay strong! how to! i cant...its juz so horrible... 我现在只不过在逃避，因为我根本没勇气独自去面对。。。我知道逃避不会解决问题，但我又该怎么办呢？单独去面对，我根本做不到。过程，后果，那一切太多了。。。

2007-11-30T01:11:00.000-08:00

i cant take it anymore!!! can someone juz cum n save me!!! i doubt anyone can...haiz...

i'm like so super pissed off can! proposal, log list, plannin, meetings, organization, co practs, chem lessons, nxt yr common test in wk 2, crazy 10 day wk timetable, HOMEWORK!!! OPERATION!!! i'm goin damn real extremely horribly terribly CRAZY!!!

went 2 lib in the early mornin 2day hopin dat i'll get some homework done n guess wat! stare at integration n stone! dunno how 2 do!!! then try doin integration tutorial onli do 3 qns! dat is like total crap can. the more i do the more demoralised i get...haiz...my life is sooooo horrible... now my homework onli 1% done la! 1 day finish 1% so i'll need 100 days to finish 100%!!! lolx... so when sch term starts nxt yr, i'll onli hv abt 30% homework completed! OMG!!! dat's like I'M SO DEAD can! haiz...

which 好心人 can save me! haiz...

也许我应该学习如何放松心情，不要管，不要理会那么多。。。但一旦松懈又会如何？我该怎么办啊！！！救命啊！！！

2007-11-28T23:39:00.000-08:00

1st time ever i overslept for CO!!! co was at like 9am then i woke up at like 920am! n i think i'll cont sleepin if my phone didnt ring! haha...lolx... so finally, i rush like mad until i almost died n reached sch at 1030am n guess wat! it was BREAK TIME!!! OMG! arrgh... 早知道就不要那么赶了! ok la..but it's really my fault dat i'm late cos i couldn't wake up! cos i slept at onli like 330am! recently been a panda whole day long...

went 4 sakae 2day...seriously i think i'm a pig!!! lolx... muz go 减肥! dun care dun care!n start my joggin routine... n get serious wif studyin!!! i've slacked for a whole entire year!!! o.O...cannot cannot...need 2 study le...if not nxt yr i'll die lor... so...ppl!!! jio me out go study!!! lols...XD...

oh ya...btw, dun think i'll be able 2 slp 2nite...cos... I JUZ WOKE UP AT 10PM! seriously, how much lazier can i get la...hopeless leh me...haiz...haiz...haiz...

2007-11-28T01:18:00.000-08:00

OMG!!! forgot dat tmr need hand in work schedule!!! juz finish rushin it out! n proposal aso!!! OMG!!! so many things haven do! i think i will do until i die lor...haiz... n homework haven even touch 1 single corner of it yet la! 36 pages of chem, maths papers n tutorials, econs journals n newspaper articles, n stiu hv co practs!!! sian leh...haix...

shld get started some how...i dun seem 2 be gettin anywhere at all now la! so many things 2 do! my life is in a mess!!! OMG! wat 2 do!!!!!

juz came back fr bbq... 2 bbq's in a wk! lolx... i think i'm fallin SICK! seem to be cumin up wif slight fever n sore throat... haiz...this is'nt a v nice time 2 fall sick! haiz... i'm feelin damn horrible now... ... ...

2007-11-25T23:57:00.000-08:00

juz finished readin this book last night entitled "Six Months To Live" by Lurlene McDaniel... it's a light but sad story about this girl named Dawn Rochelle who got leukemia at the age of 13.

while seeking treatment in the hospital, she got to know of a really good friend named sandy who aso has leukemia. their days in the hospital were horrible with needles and medication which made them feel really uneasy and uncomfortable. but it was the support and encouragement that they gave each other that allowed them to perservere against this common enemy of theirs.

finally, they went into remission and went home. though the girls stayed rather far apart, they wrote to each other frequently, tellin each other about their 'free' life that has changed since they went home and started school. people were lookin at them and treatin them differently. some were avoidin them, some were especially concerned. this was very unsettling for Dawn. she juz wanted people to treat her normally, juz like before, before she was admitted to hospital, before she was sick...

durin the summer holidays, they went to a camp where they got to know 2 guys, Greg and Mike. they had a great time at the camp while pulling a prank on Dr Ben. nothin lasts foreva...so, aft 2 wks, the camp came to an end and they had to return home.

not long after goin home, Dawn received a letter from Sandy. Sandy had a relapse and had to undergo treatment again. upon hearin this news, Dawn was filled with dismay... a few wks later, Sandy died... "Somehow, Dawn made it up the stairs to her bedroom. She never remembered going. She only remembered being there. She only remembered sitting on her bed and staring into space.She remembered feeling cold, so cold..."

To everything, there is a season.

a time to born, and a time to die

a time to sow, and a time to reap

a time to hurt, and a time to heal

a time to weep, and a time to laugh

a time to mourn, and a time to dance

a time to get, and a time to lose

a time to keep, and a time to cast away

a time to keep silence, and a time to speak

a time to love, and a time to hate...

2007-11-23T23:01:00.000-08:00

this morinin got awaken by an sms! so i juz forced myself 2 wake up n go reply... then i went for a cup of water n when i wanted 2 go back to slp, i couldn't! the hammerin nxt door started! neighbour doin renovations... I'VE BEEN TORTURED FOR 4 DAYS BY ALL DAT NOISE POLLUTION! DUN THEY NOE DAT BY DOIN SO NEGATIVE EXTERNALITIES IS BEIN INCURRED!!! so no choice cant slp liao... haiz... so i went to make a pot of camomile flower tea n took out some hazelnut chocolate waffles 2 eat...

luckily there was dental appt 2day so i can get away fr all the destructive n disruptive noise at the ltr part of the day... so, i left at 2pm n went 4 the super long train ride to outram... n phew..i was almost late lor...appt at 3.15pm n i registered at like 3.12pm...haha...lolx... aft dat, go into the room then guess wat the dentist said!?! I GOT 4 WISDOM TEETH CUMIN OUT NOW!!! NEED GO PLUCK OUT!!! IN OTHER WORDS NEED GO 4 OPERATION 2 GET IT OUT!!!

when i heard it, i was like OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! 4 AT THE SAME TIME! MEANS I WILL DIE OF PAIN MAN! SUPER SCARY! SUPER PAIN! AND I SUPER DUPER ULTRA EXTREMELY TERRIBLY HORRIBLY DAMN SCARED CAN! hear liao is like 天塌下来的感觉 u noe... i dun think i even hv the 勇气 to step into the operation room lor...mayb i'll hv jelly legs then cant even walk properly... HOW! HOW! HOW! i'm scared leh... n worse still if i go alone i will be scared 2 death la! AHHHHH!!! i goin cry le la..... sobs...bos...sobs... =(((

我根本没有一丝的勇气去面对这一切，但又有谁能告诉我该怎么办呢？？？

2007-11-20T10:07:00.000-08:00

mission impossible made POSSIBLE ytd!!! haha...lolx... i actualli managed 2 reach on time @ 3pm when chem lesson ended late n i hv 2 rush home n change, pack, n rush out again, etc etc... n i stay so FAR!!! haha...lolx...

juz came back fr class chalet!!! now onli 10 am...i think i siao le lor...last nite nvr slp at all!!! ghost story...freaky... sends shivers down my spine la...o.O...n summore the atmosphere scary can! now super tired! this morn 7am damn tired then napped for like onli 30 mins...aft this i goin slp le! if not cannot tahan!!!lolx...

how i wish dat ppl would be more responsible with stuff dat they borrow fr ppl... i cant stand ppl who juz borrow ppl's stuff n juz leave them lyin ard lor...how will u feel if it's urs!

ok...enuf enuf...now pics postin session...haha...aft dat i really muz go SLEEP!

look at the mess mr toh made!!!

bridgin b4 bbq starts...

me n anandhi...

smile at the camera! =)

it's time 2 start the fire! haha...

poke, poke, poke the food...lolx...

bbq time!
wat's mr toh doin??? somethin droppin fr the sky??? haha...lols...

con't bridgin aft bbq...

verlyn n me...

2007-11-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

on a rainy day, sittin in a couch in the livin room readin a book with a cup of pipin hot earl grey n a piece of rich cheese cake...dats wat i call enjoyment n relaxation... i simply love doin this... but how long can this last...?

2007-11-18T14:07:00.000-08:00

woohoo!!! finally got new shoes!!! haha... 3 pairs at 1 go! ...

my mum keep sayin dat it's a waste of money to buy shoes,clothes n bags!!! omg! i dun think i can survive if i dun get 2 buy shoes clothes n bags lor! n accessories aso... dun care dun care! i will still buy de...haha...as long as i can control my spendings can le...i think...haha...lolx...XD...

ok now pics postin session! a no. of pics durin the past few days...lols...

fav pair out of the 3! haha...XD...

pair of bronze slippers...lol...

3rd pair of shoes! o.O...XD...

my 1st attempt of chocolate makin...

vanilla almond chips ice cream...[guilty]

new pink specs! dun say its too sweet 4 me!!!~

weird pose! haha...

back at zhonghua! yeah!

amanda, mui n me...

food time! main course...grilled fish wif dunno wat...haha...XD...

face super bright!!! lols...

yt, miic n me!

2007-11-18T00:15:00.000-08:00

Nature's first green is gold,

Her hardest hue to hold.

Her early leaf's a flower;

But only so an hour.

Then leaf subsides to leave.

So Eden sank to grief,

So dawn goes down to day,

Nothing gold can stay.

时间能够淡化所有一切。。。这句话一点都没错，因为所有的一切都已经淡化了。。。在这世上，没有什么东西都是一辈子的。不管你多么珍惜，多么不舍，多么不愿意放开，始终，有一天，你都会失去，都得放手。。。遗憾，那是遗憾吗？但你不已进了力，适着去挽回一切。。。所有的结果还是这样。。。我也心灰意冷了。。。

2007-11-17T22:35:00.000-08:00

feel so guilty 2day!!!
eat too much le!!!OMG!!! goin 2 turn into pig liao! muz start 2 exercise!!! go runnin...haha...lolx...
eat until goin 2 burst le! n i think i eat really slow!!! like 乌龟 liddat la...everyone finish 1 bowl of soup i onli finish 1/2...ppl finish main course start dessert, i juz finish 1/2 of main course! muz eat faster!!! haha...lolx...nonsense lor i bloggin now...XD...
then went for gelato ice cream!!! belgium chocolate nice nice nice!!! i simply love chocolate man! chocolate n ice cream are simply the bestest la! lolx...oops...greedy me...*grins*...aft dat went to my grandma's hse then eat fried chicken!!! woah! 2day eat so much fattenin stuff...guilty...guilty...v guilty...! dun go jian fei realli becum 大肥猪!

2007-11-15T13:50:00.000-08:00

why cant ppl be more responsible!
izzit really dat difficult???
its not onli abt U and URSELF!
there are ppl ard too ok! think of THEM too! not juz URSELF!

2007-11-14T15:30:00.000-08:00

eatin 7 hot spicy crispy nuggets straight in a row is shiok! haha...lolx...

actualli...2day no need go sch!!! but sian got meetin then need go sch liao...haiz...
nxt yr alot of things cumin up! look forward 2 them ppl!
omg! this means we'll be damn busy organisin n plannin... but nvm...4 the better n more vibrant sch life! it's worth it! haha...lolx...

startin 2 dread the hols alrd even when lessons are goin on now... wonder how it will be like when lessons stop!
n nxt yr de 10 day wk time table is kns! blur sotongs like me will sure get confused n blurred up de lor...why the blur blur sotong is always me!!!haiz... :(

oh yeah! ppl, btw, my msn nick is definitely not referin 2 me for the past few weeks! its abt this show dat i'm watchin...haha...lolx...

waitin for 5pm to cum faster!!! then can watch BFB! haha...hopefully hv MR.PIG!!! then i laugh until burst lor! lolx...those who are watchin it shld con't watchin! those who haven o dun watch it, muz go watch!!! haha...XD

2007-11-13T22:18:00.000-08:00

lotsa things happenin recently n goin 2 happen... lots to worry abt...wif all these things happenin, everythin seems 2 be fallin apart...haiz...dunno wat i shld do...juz go wif the flow i guess...but izzit possible??? it doesn't seem so to me...

BAI FEN BAI!!! i'm startin 2 like this show !lolx...
Mr .Pig...haha...DAMN FUNNY!!!
everytime aso make me laugh until i stomachache! lolx...
cum out wif the toilet paper roll scarf wif the lip gloss...
i think all these funny stuff shld cheer me up when i'm down bahx...hopefully...haha...

2007-11-09T20:22:00.000-08:00

FISH! got awoken by a grp of noisy n rowdy ppl at home! why cant they juz keep their vol down!!!!!

ok enuf...noisy i 忍。。。but dun bang my piano!!! play wifout askin me i 忍 alrd lor... why muz torture it! i juz hate ppl anyhow playin n bangin my piano! it's not their piano they 没有感觉! but it's mine!!! i can tolerate them makin noise wifout makin a real big fuss out of it, but i juz cant stand ppl anyhow touchin my piano!!!so ask them get lost! get away fr my piano b4 i blow up at them!!! i hear them bang my piano again i sure go down scold them!!! SUPER PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!! dont they noe how 2 respect people n their properties! basic manners! OMG! I juz cant stand them bringin destruction 2 my piano!

2day go sch actualli wan return lib book! then same as usual, the forgetful n v scatterbrain me actualli 4GOT! so clever of me lor...nothin seems 2 be goin correctly 2day...even 2day's cake aso abit off!!! haiz...wats wrong wif 2day!!! i juz dun understand...=(

2007-11-07T20:21:00.000-08:00

there are some things in life dat are fated...
the world is full of unfairness whether u like it or not...
there are reasons behind every decision dat is made...
the outcome that u get is not always positive...
there are decisions in life dat are hard to make...
the solution will not always be pleasant...
but all these are real n u will hv to learn to accept it...
i wonder if i can do it... ... ...

2007-11-07T11:32:00.000-08:00

i've got nothin better 2 do now!!! stiu muz wait for 2 hrs b4 co start...rottin in the library...haiz...

2007-11-05T21:26:00.000-08:00

sneeze,sneeze, n more sneezes!!! tmr go sch look like ghost liao...shit la! how 2 stop the sneezes!!! ah choo!!! o.O...

sian...tmr need go study le...cannot slp until v late alrd...slept until 2.30pm this aft...n haven do tut!!! this aft wan do de but bro got er hu lesson! then 吵 until i cant do! haiz...ltr b4 i sleep then go do bahx...hopefully 2nite can slp le...if 失眠 again tmr i go sch worse than ghost lor...

this aft prac piano...reminds me of the MEP days... esp the time when all of us r preparin for our exams... evey1 muggin hard so dat we get all the facts into our brains!recitin the diff instruments n their sounds so dat we can score for world music... rememberin the different composers n PROKOFIEV!!! dat guy i wont 4get! gave me a really hard time then...need rmb so many things abt him!!! durin our practicals everyone waitin 4 the piano so they can warm up...n when we were eatin under the tables right in front of mrs tham's nose n how she favoured some over others n all of us ponnin lessons tgt...n how the guys were foolin ard at times...n i wont 4get the "cher, cher" thing/joke!!! haha...lolx... timothy ah... miss those days v much!!! wonder how u guys r doin...

why NY no MEP!!! how can dun hv!!! i miss music... as in studyin music as an A lvl sub!!! it will be so cool if this was possible...stiu wonderin if i made a correct choice of stayin in NY o not...ACJC sounded attractive then...but i chose 2 stay on...was it wise? was my choice a correct one? how would i be if my decision was 2 leave? would i be better off o worse off? AC is so diff fr NY...is music really so impt 2 me??? my ans...YES IT IS! my life will be nothin if music didnt exist...lols... i miss music v.v.v. much!!!

回忆。。。带来的情绪多之又多。。。回想起当时大家在一起开心的时光。。。但同时又想到后来的决定而有另外的一套想法。当时做出的选择是否是对的，会后悔当时的选择吗？为什么就不能有两全其美的事呢？难道非要因为选择而苦恼吗？非要让我被夹在中间不可吗？那滋味。。。很不好受。。。

执著。。。太过坚持要谋一样东西会让我更果断地做出决定吗？但当时做出的决定是否是最好的呢？如果后悔，一切都已太迟了吗？一切都不能改变了吗？要为自己所作出的选择负责任，有时是一件很痛苦的事。。。

2007-11-04T08:51:00.000-08:00

drip,drop,drip,drop,drip,drop...raindrops are fallin on my head...
its currently rainin! n its 1 am liao...but i cant sleep...dunno why aso...not able to get to slp these few days...失眠是一件很痛苦的事。。。how i wish dat i can fall asleep once i lie in my comfy bed n hv beautiful dreams...haiz...esp this type of rainin weather!!! why cannot sleep!!! then see lightnin flash!!! o.O...eeeks!!! scary...

在梦的世界里，一切都是那么的美好，那么地轻松自在。。。但从梦中清醒后，真实的世界却是那么的冷清，那么地烦燥，那么地无趣。。。每天过着平淡无偿的生活，做的事情都一样，一点新鲜感也没有，真是令人感叹啊。。。

在梦的世界里，一切的幻想都是那么的真实，仿佛就像是发生在现实生活中。。。没有烦恼地过着每一天，每天都与喜欢的人一起度过，梦幻世界与真实的生活太不一样了。。。如果能够选择，活在一个虚构，不存在的世界里，那也不见得是件坏事。。。至少烦恼少一点，压力少一点，快乐多一点。。。

但是，梦与现实只不过是一线之差。。。现实，真实的世界，不会是相同于梦的世界。。。残酷的事实始终是要面对的。。。可悲，可悲。。。

“我不要你解释，我不要你发誓，

我只要你记得此刻你眼里我的样子，

爱我不要解释，爱我不要发誓，

从此刻到世界末日让我们一起把爱，

活成最美最美的钻石。。。”

2007-11-03T18:10:00.000-07:00

cookies! cookies! n more cookies!!!haha...lolx...

cannot prac piano 2day cos elder bro's friends came!!! so in the end go bake cookies! haha...lolx... cornflake chocolate chip raisin cookies! sounds nice ritex! XD...

bakin alot recently due to the fact dat i'm bored at home! but everyday bake then everyday hv somethin new to eat, sumthin new to try...not bad wat...at least i wont starve! haha...but need go buy ingredients! i wanna make cheese cake!!! chocolate cheese cake! raspberry cheese cake! chocolate marble cheese cake!!! those type wif the digestive biscuit as the crust!!! yum yum...nice leh!!! one of these days muz go try n make! lolx...

hope it rains quickly!!! then i no need go swimmin le...if not every saturday aso need go swimmin!!! i lazy dun feel like goin! haiz...but no choice unless it rains! so faster rain!!! i sound so bad n feel so guilty... ... =( ...

人都是自私的吗？不论想什么，第一个想到的都是自己，而不是别人。。。在这个社会里，所有的一切都进行，发展得很快。如果不跟着时代的改变和变化一起进步，那么我们将会被淘汰。为了不要当被淘汰的受害者，大家都不停地自我提升。在这过程中，我们都不会留意到身边人，事，物，一切所发生与存在的一切。。。也因为这样，他/她/它们都被我们忽略了。。。为什么大家就不能放慢脚步，来关心一下这一切。。。在忙碌的人生里，也许就因为这样，我们就错过了生命里所能够拥有的这一切。。。只想到自己，为了让自己变成一个成功的人，失去的将会比拥有的多。。。这样，值得吗？

enuf of my preachin...lolx...now for how the cookies came abt!

wat u need to make the cookies!?!

mix all the ingredients tgt!!!
take half tablespoon fulls n roll them into balls! dip in remainin cornflakes...

flatten wif fork!

bake for 12-15 mins n let it cool...

77 cookies!!!haha...lolx...

2007-11-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

finally!!! new layout!!!haha...lolx...

internet laggin!!! 受不了!!!

stop sayin i'm a typical hsewife la! juz becos i like bakin doesnt mean i will be a hsewife!!! so mean lor...sobs...haha...lolx...

juz baked a orange walnut cake 2day...tmr try somethin new...mayb make cornflake chocholate chip raisin cookies! o try making nutty crunchy chocolates aso can...o make brownies!!!haha...tmr then think...

ok enuf crappin... 2day stay at home rot again...as usual... somehow i miss the schooling days leh...cant belief i'm actualli sayin this...but YES!!! at least go 2 sch got somethin 2 do...not like now...everyday at home turnin into fossil...lols...

活在一个空荡荡的时空里，我每天都在发白日梦！不知今天要做什么，明天会做什么，生活里一点色彩都没有。。。单调的人生使我快要发疯了！没有意义地过着每一天，什么意思都没有，真是无趣啊。。。嘿。。。

now...4 time to noe how my orange walnut cake is made!haha...lolx...XD...lame!!! i noe...

ingredients!

cream butter n sugar...aft dat, add in eggs one at a time n grated orange rind...beat well!

sift in flour, baking powder and orange juice until smooth. then, add in walnuts!

place in a rouded bakin tin and bake for 45 mins at 170 degree celcius

finally!!! the orange walnut cake is 'borned'!!! haha...XD...

2007-11-01T07:21:00.000-07:00

2day was a slackin day!!!
whole day slackin...
finally went to buy my baking chocolate...

went to my cousin's hse 2day...
Matthias loves 2 talk! but most of the time, i dunno wat he sayin...haha...lolx... Samuel so cute!!! but he likes to turn ard when u carry him! so carryin him is a great challenge! lolx...

went 2 ikea 2day...dats a realli dull place i find...dun like go there but dunno why my parents n my elder bro like 2 go leh...haiz... so no choice need 2 go there...then we go n eat! dats the onli thing ilike abt ikea...haha...lolx... SWEDISH MEATBALLS n CHICKEN WINGS! XD

sometimes, i find dat my life is so meaningless cos theres nothing i can do... i juz let a day pass simply becos i hv 2 live for another day cos dats my life! life is so lifeless!!! i'm like living juz for the sake of living... boring life...sianz...

在平淡无偿的人生里，没有光彩，没有色彩，就毫无目标地走下去。。。今日不知明日事，也不知要做什么。。。难道我的人生就要这样地过完吗？没有目标，没有希望，似乎像是个没有明天的人。。。

Matthias...

Samuel!

Swedish Meatballs!!! delicious!

Chicken wings!!!

jelly...

2007-10-31T20:22:00.000-07:00

omg!omg!omg!omg!omg!

cannot stand it liao!!!

i freakin out here!!!

too many flyin creatures!!!

first a beetle, then a bee, then a giant flyin ant!!!

OMG!!!ARRGH!!! i cant stand it!!! i dun think my bro can stand it anymore too wif all my screamings cos of these flyin thingies ard...lolx... o.O

went j8 wif miic 2day...bought new clothes! spent lotsa $$ le!!! now muz start savin b4 i go on shoppin spree again...haha...

when i came home, went 2 read book! not cook book...is storybook!!! can u believe it! i'm actualli readin leh! Shopaholic!!! nice book abt this person called becky who LOVES shoppin!!! she's like 100 times worse than me when she goes shoppin! her honeymoon was 10 mths long!!! *envious*

then aft dat i went 2 the kitchen 2 find snacks 2 eat! haha...i noe i 贪吃 la... haha...lolx... n guess wat i did when i was eatin! i was battlin wif a MOSQUITO! not an ordinary mosquito, but a 'highly intelligent' one! this big fat mosquito suck dunno how much of my blood le! i noe it is highly interested in me but I AM NOT! so hv to lure it out wif my temptin blood!haha...lolx... n when he was enjoyin a great 'feast', "piak" i killed it! muahaha... but b4 it was defeated, it bit me like 7 times today!!!, not countin the countless times it bit me earlier on...

有时，我不想是那么残忍的一个人。。。但因为被当时的情况所逼，我不能不残忍一些。。。对敌人仁慈就是对自己残忍。不是你死，就是我亡。那当然是你死啦！

now...pics time!haha...lolx...

frozen strawberries! v nice!!! yummy! XD

all green!

my piano...n exam score!!! o.O

the weird flyin beetle!!!!!

2007-10-30T04:59:00.000-07:00

FINALLY! OP OVER!!!

super pissed off wif dat freakin teacher 2day!
we play cards not his business aso wan stick his butt in!
kick him la! wats wrong wif ppl playin cards la! aft exam play 4 fun aso cannot! cant stand it! 'watch out nxt yr'...he then watch out! he nxt yr becum my teacher i give him hell lor! Frog teacher!

OP ended real early 2day! then we slacked ard until 5 plus liddat then go home...cum home le go shred all my op script n news article! haha...lolx... dun wanna hv anymore nonsense on pw!!!

为什么一个人的烦恼那么多。。。烦恼多，

人生也变得更加复杂。。。多一点烦恼，就

少一点快乐。。。活在痛苦中的我不知何时

才能再看到开心的那一道光芒。。。难道我

的生命中就不会有快乐的时光吗。。。真是

令人感叹啊。。。

ok...enuf of emo-ing...now for pics!!!haha...lolx...

final OP script!

OP script! look at it again!

our groundbreaker: Louis Pasteur

name so small nametag so BIG!

OP script n news article all shredded!!!
ice blended banana smoothie...yummy! XD

2007-10-29T05:16:00.000-07:00

A LVL CHI OVER!!!

YES!!! AFT TMR, OP OVER!!!

YES!!! THEN CAN GO PLAY!!!

YES! YES! YES!

haha...2day's chi paper the qn cum out all weird weird de! then i give the ans aso weird weird de...lols...always liddat de leh...i study de topics always nvr cum out! the stupid bee! i nvr even touch 1 single word fr dat passage b4 lor...haiz... 4get it la...its over anywayz...

did OP this afternoon...but i think we play more than do OP lor...lolx...bridge, dai di, murderer, heart attack...play until we go mad!!!haha...then play wif the visualiser!!! i think we got nothin better 2 play le lor...

why do ppl like 2 suan me!!! i v nice 2 suan izzit! haiz...

人善被人欺。。。

now 4 entertainment time!!!haha...lolx...

OH NO!!! yy n clarence!!!lolx...

yy!!! ben!!! yy 2 timin???haha...lolx...XD

clarence!!! wat happened 2 ur body!!!

all of them have been compressed by the EVIL hand...muahaha...

dats my dinner!!!

2007-10-28T20:06:00.000-07:00

power-band + rubber-band= teeth super pain!
cant wait 4 my braces 2 get taken out!!! wonder when dat will be...
dunno why 2day keep hittin me teeth then OMG! super pain! eat muruku dat time keep hittin then almost died of painess sia...lolx...

1 MORE DAY TO A LVL CHINESE!!!

ITS TMR!!! SO FAST!!!JIAYOU JIAYOU WOR EVERYONE!!!
ALL THESE CRAPPY SHIT WILL BE OVER SOON!!!
A LVL CHI...PW OP...JUZ A FEW MORE DAYS! ENDURE!

haven finish readin chi ke wen yet...die liao la...if my chi fail ah i think i cry until blind lor...lolx...hopefully dat wont be true bahx...

只要我进了力，对得起自己的良心，我想，我

也无怨无悔了吧。。。不管将来要面对怎样的

结果，我都应该回去接受。不是应该，是一定

要！因为，到时，一切已成定局，什么都改变

不了这个事实了。。。

2007-10-27T23:35:00.000-07:00

finally finished my I&R!!!

Going to my grandma's hse 4 dinner ltr...wonder wat she'll be cookin...hmm...greedy me...XD...*grins*

everythin will be endin soon... chi a lvl...pw...all over in 3 more days! then aft dat it will be the hols!haha...lolx... but b4 dat day cums, stiu hv 2 work realli
hard! 最后的匆次是很重要的！

we should give every opportunity that we have our greatest shot and not find excuses when we do not achieve wat we wan...

“不要为失败找理由，只要为成功找方法”

我们可以为自己的过失编出很多的借口，但扪心自问，这都是事实吗？我们可以欺骗别人，但在自己的内心深处，我们知道这并非如此。。。骗不了自己，不愿意面对现实，痛苦的还是自己。。。不是吗？

on the way to grandma's hse

Goin home!

i luv seedless grapes!

nutty nutty nutty nuts...

2007-10-26T21:46:00.000-07:00

haiz...another sleepy day... i think i turnin into pig le lor...everyday aso so tired de...then always feel like sleepin... Zzz...

4got 2 bring my phone 2 sch again!!! 1 wk can 4get twice la! horrible lor...i think my memory failin liao...my phone juz on my bed n i actualli didnt see it! summore the bedsheet n hp cover colour so contrastin la! but i nvr see!!!haiz...realli miss my phone when i was in sch...

haha...2day aft finishin OP rehersal we go see soccer match! see until the sky turn dark lor...lolx... actualli i dun realli fancy soccer juz go see 4 fun onli...haha...XD

now facin a v.v.v.difficult decision 2 make... shld i go 4 OGL o go KL 2 play n shop!?! i both aso wan go!!!but cannot both aso go cos both fall on the same date...haiz...i dunno how 2 choose!!!sian lor...haix...

why muz life be full of so many problems!!! why cant everythin hv a clear cut decision dat can be made!!!why cant things juz turn out right this time!!!why is everythin all so screwed!!!why am i askin so many why qns!!!haha...lols...XD

人生如戏。。。戏如人生。。。我们会在人生

的道路中遇到许多平凡与不平凡的事物。我们

必须在人生的交叉点作出许许多多的选择。做

出选择后，我们将要面对与承担所有的后果。人

生就是如此。。。

2007-10-25T23:57:00.000-07:00

4 MORE DAYS TO CHI A LVL!!!
5 MORE DAYS TO OP!!!
OMG WHY SO FAST!!!

2day was juz a usual day of sch wif lessons n pw...

aft chi lesson, we go pw classroom do op...budden instead of startin op, we started bridge! then we go close all the doors scared get caught lor...haha...lolx...

i tot dat 2day's rehersal was ok, but i was rather bad... stiu no eye contact! i dun dare... i think is 心

理障碍 lor...how 2 克服! i dunno... once i hv eye

contact i freak out then everythin will screw le...haiz...

aft rehersal go home do bakin again! haha... made cornflake raisin marshmallow crunch 2day! wonder wat i'll make tmr...lols...

ok la...now is pics time!!! :)

Playing bridge!!!
1st winner... 7 diamonds

honey oatmeal chocolate chip raisin cookies i made ytd...

where r the cookies! cookie monsters finished them!

today... in the process of makin...

finally! cornflake raisin marshmallow crunch

illusions...

2007-10-24T19:37:00.000-07:00

oh no!!! i think i'm goin crazy!!!
this morning i actualli saw someone who was not there!!! sounds weird ritex...i tot so too... i tot dat i saw wing him quein at the front of the class then ltr on go back class dat time i realise she stiu sleepin at home!!! then who was that i saw durin mornin assembly!?! oh no!!!...i'm seein things...o.O...7th month over le leh...eeekk...scary...lolx...

today was the last wednesday of morning assembly... last wed this yr dat all the flags are raised durin mornin assembly...last wed this yr dat i'll raise the flag durin mornin assembly... ... ...
when huifang told me dat it was the last time dat she'll be raisin the phoenix flag, i didnt noe wat 2 say...i didnt noe if i can say anythin cos i was at a loss for words. i juz walked on n on not knowin wat 2 say even when my mouth kept movin...i didnt noe wat i was sayin! felt as though i couldnt help o comfort my friend at all! does this make me a bad friend???i dunno... ... ...

i juz find dat there are many things in life dat we shld cherish n not havin regrets... it may sound simple, but its difficult...

人往往会等到失去后才来后悔为什么没有珍惜

当初所拥有的一切。。。我们都知道珍惜的可贵，但

又有谁能够做得到呢？当我们拥有时，大家都会把这

一切当成理所当然，从未想过会有失去这一切的一

天。但当我们失去后，发现他/她/它的重要性时，那

时以太晚了。。。无法挽回的这一切会使我们感到遗

憾，失望和悔意。。。

it all started wif promos...

2007-10-23T19:15:00.000-07:00

juz finished bakin my lemon shortcake! haha...lolx...

Today, we got back our promo slips! our class got 100% promotion!!! dat means chalet time!!!lolx...
though promoted, my results were still like shit! so wat if i'm promoted...i'm not even sure if i'm ready 4 j2!
i dun even noe if i can cope wif everythin dat is cumin my way... i juz hv no confidence dat i will do well...
mr toh kept sayin...if we believe dat we can do it, n we put in our best effort 2 do it, in the end, we'll see the rainbow at the end of the road...how true is this..? i do not noe... sayin is easy but the doin part is DIFFICULT!
life is full of many ups and downs. many difficulties and challenges...it is by goin thru them dat we will be able 2 learn n grow bit by bit... i guess its juz a process dats unavoidable... so, i'll hv 2 face it no matter wat!!!

there was a time when i was considerin if i shld repeat yr 1 again...but then i didnt wan 2 feel like i'm bein retained...contradictin ritex...i aso dunno wat i shld do...but i guess i'll juz move on bahx...even if i repeat another yr of jc1, there will be no gurantee dat i will do better than now...

7 more days 2 A lvl chi!!! i dun seem 2 be studyin leh...dunno why aso...mayb becos OP is takin up most of my time! its juz torturin havin to think of exams dat r cumin up soon rite aft the promos...dats jc life bahx i guess...

OP irritatedness...sian...

2007-10-22T23:52:00.000-07:00

today was a v dull day!!! recent days has been OP, OP, n more OP! OP driving me nuts!!! doin OP is like asking me to go and jump down fr a 100 storey building lor...haha...lolx...mayb not so kua zhang but i dun dare 2 talk in front of audience...n stiu muz hv eye contact so hv interaction!!! i freak out liao la...its not dat simple when u noe dat there r ppl accessin u...it's graded! how i wish dat all these will be over soon... its really torturin...juz press on for 10 more days!then its time 2 play! beofre OP there's stiu A lvl chi...promos of all subs dat i fail why muz it be chinese!!! WHY CHINESE!!! haiz... all i can say is disappointments, disappointments and more disappointments...wat happened!!! haiz...

felt v guilty today cos my pw grp had 2 reschedule our OP rehersal time cos i was late! so sorry guys... :( i dun even noe if hv contributed much to the grp o not...it juz seems so unfair... haiz...