How Much Do I Weigh In Your Heart?

woah! blog dead for so long liao...now muz update! haha...lolx... so now's the last post of the year!!! tmr it'll be 2008!!! n wed will be the sian time when sch reopens! but fun cos got orientation!!! haha...lol...XD...

as usual, my hw is stiu in a mess...haven do much, less say finish... so tmr need CHIONG whole day 2 finish as much of it as i can! think will do until i cry, until i die lor... lolx...

reflectin upon all dat has happened thruout the yr...relationships among ppl, friendships, problems, obstacles, solutions, understandings, all the sad n happy moments, misunderstandings, etc etc...all these happenings make me grow up a lil more every yr...

this yr has been one where i think i'm like so diff as when i was in sec sch... dunno if anyone'll agree???

JC is so TOTALLY diff fr sec sch... diff lesson styles, diff ppl, more hw, more commitments n definitely more stress! another yr has passed so quickly! new friends, new teachers, new knowledge, new challenges...nxt yr, everythin will start buildin on once again... preparin for a brand new beginning... or is it the continuation of what i've gone thru for the pass 17 yrs?

a new 2008...will i get what i hope for? will certain things make a turn for the better for me? will i finally see the light dat i've been hopin to see? hopes, wishes, dreams...are they possible? will they happen?

A LEVELS!!! the one dat determines my future? is dat realli true? nxt yr will hv no time for slackin at all!!! but a slacker like me where 2 find motivation 2 study? force...forcin myself 2 study n revise n do hw is torture...haiz...but wat 2 do...there's no turnin back since i made the choice... so juz JIAYOU bahx! to all my friends out there, KEMPATEH!!! 加油!

我所拥有的一切我都会紧紧地把他握住，不会轻易地松开手。把美好的回忆牢牢记住，把不愉快的一切都当成是学习，成长的一部分。懂得往前看，不要原地踏步，那么就不会错过学习的良机。为自己争取想要得到的东西，不然错过时后悔就来不及了。默默地支持你，就算你没发现，那也没关系，因为我知道不告诉你是对的。至少你不会拒绝我，那么我们还能够做朋友。对我所有真心的朋友，一声“谢谢”不足以说出我所对你们的感激。因为有你们，在我伤心与快乐的时光里都有着你们的陪伴。因为有了常在我身边的你们，我才有勇气在交叉点做出选择，面对眼前的挑战。明年将会是很累，很辛苦，很疲惫的一年。但我相信，只要有着坚定的毅力，我会把明年过得多姿多彩，找到自己能够走的一条路。

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my hands goin 2 break soon le!!! carry my heavy qin 2 sch n home 2day carry until 半条命 almost gone lor... super heavy! n i jus realised dat 2day not the last day of hols dat i need 2 go back 2 sch...haiz... last wk of dec aso need go back...haiz...

2day go sch in the morn 4 chem lesson... then aft dat stay in sch teach my juniors how 2 play 十面埋伏... teach for like 5 hrs liddat juz finish half of it onli la... n i long long time nvr touch dat song liao 2day suddenly need teach them how 2 play suddenly strain my hand... i guess tmr sure hand ache de lor...juz now use a bit force onli my hand ache n pain liao...haiz... need 2 start trainin my hands again le...if not it'll onli get worse n worse...

seriously need 2 train up again...if not nxt time teach them the nxt half of the song dat time i confirm die de... n ask them go home 练琴 then i ownself dun 练 makes it look as though i'm evil...lolx...

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once again touched my hw again 2day n completed another 1 % of it onli!haiz...wonder when i can complete them lor...sickening... so total amt of hw done now is onli a pathetic 3%...

2day prac pipa for 1hr plus...cant believe i actualli touched my pipa again aft so long!!!haha...lolx...realised dat i've deproved tremendously by alot alot alot le!!! although in sch got play, but diff type of prac method...muz start prac again!!!!!lolx...

sms exploded by abt 400 liddat liao this mth...die le die le... haiz...sure kenna scolded de lor...sianz...

wed last day need go sch le!!! yeah!...but thinkin of luggin the damn heavy qin 2 sch i sian diao aso... heavy leh! n my dad cant fetch me 2 sch...haix... so carry myself then take the long bus ride then cross the overhead bridge then walk 2 sch...i think reach sch i half dead le lor stiu go 4 lessons...arrgh!!! who can help me carry qin 2 sch!!! sian leh...lols...

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nothin 2 blog 2day...sian... so 2day will be eeyore's photo shoot! haha...lolx...

eeyore shy...lolx...

2 eeyores! haha...lolx...
cute little eeyore on my bed...XD...

eeyore's balancing act! o.O...

turtle surfin eeyore...

flyin eeyore...haha...

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cough, stuffed n blocked nose, tearin eyes, stiff neck, etc... feelin so horrible now...

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will eatin pills n medicine make me feel better? why do i hv a feelin dats its makin me feel worse??? even drinkin warm honey doesnt help anymore... shit la...how! stiu hv so many thinds 2 do leh... haiz... nvm, i shall see wat's on BFB dat will cheer me up ltr...o will anythin be able 2 cheer me up at all?

little bro cumin back tmr! haha...lolx... surprisingly, i dun really feel anythin in his absense, though sometimes i'll juz think of if he's ard wat will he be doin now...does this make me a bad sis? ok...stop thinkin of such silly things la... i bet he's havin a great time there bahx n probably not thinkin of home at all...haha...lolx...

it's abt 10 mins till 5pm! i shall go get my popcorn honey stars n wait in front of the tele! though i noe i'm not supposed 2 eat such stuff, but if i keep restrictin myself 2 wat i can eat n wat i cant eat, wont dat be terrible! erm...ok la... but it'll be quite awful 4 me...XD...

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flu, runny nose, flu, runny nose, FLU, RUNNY NOSE! cant stand it le! i think my nose goin 2 drop off soon... used up 2 boxes of tissue 2day...haiz...sian... becumin rudolf liao la...go sch see me dat time will see me wif a red, stuffy n runny nose... n i'll keep sneezin... so muz prepare lotsa tissue paper...haha...XD...

cont doin my hw again n guess wat! i finished another 1% of it onli! seriously...it will really take me 100 days to complete 100% lor...98% more 2 go! jiayou!!!lolx...

no pics recently cos dunno why my stupid phone cant get linked 2 the com so need 2 wait 4 my little bro 2 cum back then can transfer all my pics... till then it will be pictureless posts...

等待是一件很痛苦的事。。。但有时等待却是值得的。。。我的等待是痛苦，但会值得吗？

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5 days of com all to myself! usually this time my bro will be usin the com de...but, he's not ard! haha...lolx...unlike me, the lucky n fortunate him has gone overseas...me leh! hv 2 stay in s'pore the whole hols! sian...even end of year de shoppin trip 2 KL aso cant go liao...haix... nvm...dun think of the unhappy happenings...

dunno wat has got into me recently...i've been thinkin alot abt lotsa things dat hv happened...sometimes i wonder why do i even think of them...mayb dats me bahx...always living in my own world... 想把自己放开，但又却自我封闭。。。矛盾，矛盾。。。

there's somethin dat i fear dat will most probably happen, but muz i face it alone? deep inside me, i noe dat i hv no will at all to face it. no courage, all fears... facin it alone is tough... stay strong! how to! i cant...its juz so horrible... 我现在只不过在逃避，因为我根本没勇气独自去面对。。。我知道逃避不会解决问题，但我又该怎么办呢？单独去面对，我根本做不到。过程，后果，那一切太多了。。。

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