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i cant take it anymore!!! can someone juz cum n save me!!! i doubt anyone can...haiz...
i'm like so super pissed off can! proposal, log list, plannin, meetings, organization, co practs, chem lessons, nxt yr common test in wk 2, crazy 10 day wk timetable, HOMEWORK!!! OPERATION!!! i'm goin damn real extremely horribly terribly CRAZY!!!
went 2 lib in the early mornin 2day hopin dat i'll get some homework done n guess wat! stare at integration n stone! dunno how 2 do!!! then try doin integration tutorial onli do 3 qns! dat is like total crap can. the more i do the more demoralised i get...haiz...my life is sooooo horrible... now my homework onli 1% done la! 1 day finish 1% so i'll need 100 days to finish 100%!!! lolx... so when sch term starts nxt yr, i'll onli hv abt 30% homework completed! OMG!!! dat's like I'M SO DEAD can! haiz...
which 好心人 can save me! haiz...
也许我应该学习如何放松心情，不要管，不要理会那么多。。。但一旦松懈又会如何？我该怎么办啊！！！ 救命啊！！！
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1st time ever i overslept for CO!!! co was at like 9am then i woke up at like 920am! n i think i'll cont sleepin if my phone didnt ring! haha...lolx... so finally, i rush like mad until i almost died n reached sch at 1030am n guess wat! it was BREAK TIME!!! OMG! arrgh... 早知道就不要那么赶了! ok la..but it's really my fault dat i'm late cos i couldn't wake up! cos i slept at onli like 330am! recently been a panda whole day long...
went 4 sakae 2day...seriously i think i'm a pig!!! lolx... muz go 减肥! dun care dun care!n start my joggin routine... n get serious wif studyin!!! i've slacked for a whole entire year!!! o.O...cannot cannot...need 2 study le...if not nxt yr i'll die lor... so...ppl!!! jio me out go study!!! lols...XD...
oh ya...btw, dun think i'll be able 2 slp 2nite...cos... I JUZ WOKE UP AT 10PM! seriously, how much lazier can i get la...hopeless leh me...haiz...haiz...haiz...
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OMG!!! forgot dat tmr need hand in work schedule!!! juz finish rushin it out! n proposal aso!!! OMG!!! so many things haven do! i think i will do until i die lor...haiz... n homework haven even touch 1 single corner of it yet la! 36 pages of chem, maths papers n tutorials, econs journals n newspaper articles, n stiu hv co practs!!! sian leh...haix...
shld get started some how...i dun seem 2 be gettin anywhere at all now la! so many things 2 do! my life is in a mess!!! OMG! wat 2 do!!!!!
juz came back fr bbq... 2 bbq's in a wk! lolx... i think i'm fallin SICK! seem to be cumin up wif slight fever n sore throat... haiz...this is'nt a v nice time 2 fall sick! haiz... i'm feelin damn horrible now... ... ...
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juz finished readin this book last night entitled "Six Months To Live" by Lurlene McDaniel... it's a light but sad story about this girl named Dawn Rochelle who got leukemia at the age of 13.
while seeking treatment in the hospital, she got to know of a really good friend named sandy who aso has leukemia. their days in the hospital were horrible with needles and medication which made them feel really uneasy and uncomfortable. but it was the support and encouragement that they gave each other that allowed them to perservere against this common enemy of theirs.
finally, they went into remission and went home. though the girls stayed rather far apart, they wrote to each other frequently, tellin each other about their 'free' life that has changed since they went home and started school. people were lookin at them and treatin them differently. some were avoidin them, some were especially concerned. this was very unsettling for Dawn. she juz wanted people to treat her normally, juz like before, before she was admitted to hospital, before she was sick...
durin the summer holidays, they went to a camp where they got to know 2 guys, Greg and Mike. they had a great time at the camp while pulling a prank on Dr Ben. nothin lasts foreva...so, aft 2 wks, the camp came to an end and they had to return home.
not long after goin home, Dawn received a letter from Sandy. Sandy had a relapse and had to undergo treatment again. upon hearin this news, Dawn was filled with dismay... a few wks later, Sandy died... "Somehow, Dawn made it up the stairs to her bedroom. She never remembered going. She only remembered being there. She only remembered sitting on her bed and staring into space.She remembered feeling cold, so cold..."
To everything, there is a season.
a time to born, and a time to die
a time to sow, and a time to reap
a time to hurt, and a time to heal
a time to weep, and a time to laugh
a time to mourn, and a time to dance
a time to get, and a time to lose
a time to keep, and a time to cast away
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak
a time to love, and a time to hate...
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this morinin got awaken by an sms! so i juz forced myself 2 wake up n go reply... then i went for a cup of water n when i wanted 2 go back to slp, i couldn't! the hammerin nxt door started! neighbour doin renovations... I'VE BEEN TORTURED FOR 4 DAYS BY ALL DAT NOISE POLLUTION! DUN THEY NOE DAT BY DOIN SO NEGATIVE EXTERNALITIES IS BEIN INCURRED!!! so no choice cant slp liao... haiz... so i went to make a pot of camomile flower tea n took out some hazelnut chocolate waffles 2 eat...
luckily there was dental appt 2day so i can get away fr all the destructive n disruptive noise at the ltr part of the day... so, i left at 2pm n went 4 the super long train ride to outram... n phew..i was almost late lor...appt at 3.15pm n i registered at like 3.12pm...haha...lolx... aft dat, go into the room then guess wat the dentist said!?! I GOT 4 WISDOM TEETH CUMIN OUT NOW!!! NEED GO PLUCK OUT!!! IN OTHER WORDS NEED GO 4 OPERATION 2 GET IT OUT!!!
when i heard it, i was like OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! 4 AT THE SAME TIME! MEANS I WILL DIE OF PAIN MAN! SUPER SCARY! SUPER PAIN! AND I SUPER DUPER ULTRA EXTREMELY TERRIBLY HORRIBLY DAMN SCARED CAN! hear liao is like 天塌下来的感觉 u noe... i dun think i even hv the 勇气 to step into the operation room lor...mayb i'll hv jelly legs then cant even walk properly... HOW! HOW! HOW! i'm scared leh... n worse still if i go alone i will be scared 2 death la! AHHHHH!!! i goin cry le la..... sobs...bos...sobs... =(((
我根本没有一丝的勇气去面对这一切，但又有谁能告诉我该怎么办呢？？？
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mission impossible made POSSIBLE ytd!!! haha...lolx... i actualli managed 2 reach on time @ 3pm when chem lesson ended late n i hv 2 rush home n change, pack, n rush out again, etc etc... n i stay so FAR!!! haha...lolx...
juz came back fr class chalet!!! now onli 10 am...i think i siao le lor...last nite nvr slp at all!!! ghost story...freaky... sends shivers down my spine la...o.O...n summore the atmosphere scary can! now super tired! this morn 7am damn tired then napped for like onli 30 mins...aft this i goin slp le! if not cannot tahan!!!lolx...
how i wish dat ppl would be more responsible with stuff dat they borrow fr ppl... i cant stand ppl who juz borrow ppl's stuff n juz leave them lyin ard lor...how will u feel if it's urs!
ok...enuf enuf...now pics postin session...haha...aft dat i really muz go SLEEP!
look at the mess mr toh made!!!
bridgin b4 bbq starts...
me n anandhi...
smile at the camera! =)
it's time 2 start the fire! haha...
poke, poke, poke the food...lolx...
bbq time!
wat's mr toh doin??? somethin droppin fr the sky??? haha...lols...
con't bridgin aft bbq...
verlyn n me...
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on a rainy day, sittin in a couch in the livin room readin a book with a cup of pipin hot earl grey n a piece of rich cheese cake...dats wat i call enjoyment n relaxation... i simply love doin this... but how long can this last...?
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woohoo!!! finally got new shoes!!! haha... 3 pairs at 1 go! ...
my mum keep sayin dat it's a waste of money to buy shoes,clothes n bags!!! omg! i dun think i can survive if i dun get 2 buy shoes clothes n bags lor! n accessories aso... dun care dun care! i will still buy de...haha...as long as i can control my spendings can le...i think...haha...lolx...XD...
ok now pics postin session! a no. of pics durin the past few days...lols...
fav pair out of the 3! haha...XD...
pair of bronze slippers...lol...
3rd pair of shoes! o.O...XD...
my 1st attempt of chocolate makin...
vanilla almond chips ice cream...[guilty] 
new pink specs! dun say its too sweet 4 me!!!~ 
weird pose! haha...
back at zhonghua! yeah! 
amanda, mui n me... 
food time! main course...grilled fish wif dunno wat...haha...XD...
face super bright!!! lols...
yt, miic n me!
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Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leave.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day,
Nothing gold can stay.
时间能够淡化所有一切。。。这句话一点都没错，因为所有的一切都已经淡化了。。。在这世上，没有什么东西都是一辈子的。不管你多么珍惜，多么不舍，多么不愿意放开，始终，有一天，你都会失去，都得放手。。。遗憾，那是遗憾吗？但你不已进了力，适着去挽回一切。。。所有的结果还是这样。。。我也心灰意冷了。。。
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feel so guilty 2day!!!
eat too much le!!!OMG!!! goin 2 turn into pig liao! muz start 2 exercise!!! go runnin...haha...lolx...
eat until goin 2 burst le! n i think i eat really slow!!! like 乌龟 liddat la...everyone finish 1 bowl of soup i onli finish 1/2...ppl finish main course start dessert, i juz finish 1/2 of main course! muz eat faster!!! haha...lolx...nonsense lor i bloggin now...XD...
then went for gelato ice cream!!! belgium chocolate nice nice nice!!! i simply love chocolate man! chocolate n ice cream are simply the bestest la! lolx...oops...greedy me...*grins*...aft dat went to my grandma's hse then eat fried chicken!!! woah! 2day eat so much fattenin stuff...guilty...guilty...v guilty...! dun go jian fei realli becum 大肥猪!
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why cant ppl be more responsible!
izzit really dat difficult???
its not onli abt U and URSELF!
there are ppl ard too ok! think of THEM too! not juz URSELF!
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eatin 7 hot spicy crispy nuggets straight in a row is shiok! haha...lolx...
actualli...2day no need go sch!!! but sian got meetin then need go sch liao...haiz...
nxt yr alot of things cumin up! look forward 2 them ppl!
omg! this means we'll be damn busy organisin n plannin... but nvm...4 the better n more vibrant sch life! it's worth it! haha...lolx...
startin 2 dread the hols alrd even when lessons are goin on now... wonder how it will be like when lessons stop!
n nxt yr de 10 day wk time table is kns! blur sotongs like me will sure get confused n blurred up de lor...why the blur blur sotong is always me!!!haiz... :(
oh yeah! ppl, btw, my msn nick is definitely not referin 2 me for the past few weeks! its abt this show dat i'm watchin...haha...lolx...
waitin for 5pm to cum faster!!! then can watch BFB! haha...hopefully hv MR.PIG!!! then i laugh until burst lor! lolx...those who are watchin it shld con't watchin! those who haven o dun watch it, muz go watch!!! haha...XD
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lotsa things happenin recently n goin 2 happen... lots to worry abt...wif all these things happenin, everythin seems 2 be fallin apart...haiz...dunno wat i shld do...juz go wif the flow i guess...but izzit possible??? it doesn't seem so to me...
BAI FEN BAI!!! i'm startin 2 like this show !lolx...
Mr .Pig...haha...DAMN FUNNY!!!
everytime aso make me laugh until i stomachache! lolx...
cum out wif the toilet paper roll scarf wif the lip gloss...
i think all these funny stuff shld cheer me up when i'm down bahx...hopefully...haha...
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FISH! got awoken by a grp of noisy n rowdy ppl at home! why cant they juz keep their vol down!!!!!
ok enuf...noisy i 忍。。。but dun bang my piano!!! play wifout askin me i 忍 alrd lor... why muz torture it! i juz hate ppl anyhow playin n bangin my piano! it's not their piano they 没有感觉! but it's mine!!! i can tolerate them makin noise wifout makin a real big fuss out of it, but i juz cant stand ppl anyhow touchin my piano!!!so ask them get lost! get away fr my piano b4 i blow up at them!!! i hear them bang my piano again i sure go down scold them!!! SUPER PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!! dont they noe how 2 respect people n their properties! basic manners! OMG! I juz cant stand them bringin destruction 2 my piano!
2day go sch actualli wan return lib book! then same as usual, the forgetful n v scatterbrain me actualli 4GOT! so clever of me lor...nothin seems 2 be goin correctly 2day...even 2day's cake aso abit off!!! haiz...wats wrong wif 2day!!! i juz dun understand...=(
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there are some things in life dat are fated...
the world is full of unfairness whether u like it or not...
there are reasons behind every decision dat is made...
the outcome that u get is not always positive...
there are decisions in life dat are hard to make...
the solution will not always be pleasant...
but all these are real n u will hv to learn to accept it...
i wonder if i can do it... ... ...
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i've got nothin better 2 do now!!! stiu muz wait for 2 hrs b4 co start...rottin in the library...haiz...
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sneeze,sneeze, n more sneezes!!! tmr go sch look like ghost liao...shit la! how 2 stop the sneezes!!! ah choo!!! o.O...
sian...tmr need go study le...cannot slp until v late alrd...slept until 2.30pm this aft...n haven do tut!!! this aft wan do de but bro got er hu lesson! then 吵 until i cant do! haiz...ltr b4 i sleep then go do bahx...hopefully 2nite can slp le...if 失眠 again tmr i go sch worse than ghost lor...
this aft prac piano...reminds me of the MEP days... esp the time when all of us r preparin for our exams... evey1 muggin hard so dat we get all the facts into our brains!recitin the diff instruments n their sounds so dat we can score for world music... rememberin the different composers n PROKOFIEV!!! dat guy i wont 4get! gave me a really hard time then...need rmb so many things abt him!!! durin our practicals everyone waitin 4 the piano so they can warm up...n when we were eatin under the tables right in front of mrs tham's nose n how she favoured some over others n all of us ponnin lessons tgt...n how the guys were foolin ard at times...n i wont 4get the "cher, cher" thing/joke!!! haha...lolx... timothy ah... miss those days v much!!! wonder how u guys r doin...
why NY no MEP!!! how can dun hv!!! i miss music... as in studyin music as an A lvl sub!!! it will be so cool if this was possible...stiu wonderin if i made a correct choice of stayin in NY o not...ACJC sounded attractive then...but i chose 2 stay on...was it wise? was my choice a correct one? how would i be if my decision was 2 leave? would i be better off o worse off? AC is so diff fr NY...is music really so impt 2 me??? my ans...YES IT IS! my life will be nothin if music didnt exist...lols... i miss music v.v.v. much!!!
回忆。。。带来的情绪多之又多。。。回想起当时大家在一起开心的时光。。。但同时又想到后来的决定而有另外的一套想法。当时做出的选择是否是对的，会后悔当时的选择吗？为什么就不能有两全其美的事呢？难道非要因为选择而苦恼吗？非要让我被夹在中间不可吗？那滋味。。。很不好受。。。
执著。。。太过坚持要谋一样东西会让我更果断地做出决定吗？但当时做出的决定是否是最好的呢？如果后悔，一切都已太迟了吗？一切都不能改变了吗？要为自己所作出的选择负责任，有时是一件很痛苦的事。。。
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drip,drop,drip,drop,drip,drop...raindrops are fallin on my head...
its currently rainin! n its 1 am liao...but i cant sleep...dunno why aso...not able to get to slp these few days...失眠是一件很痛苦的事。。。how i wish dat i can fall asleep once i lie in my comfy bed n hv beautiful dreams...haiz...esp this type of rainin weather!!! why cannot sleep!!! then see lightnin flash!!! o.O...eeeks!!! scary...
在梦的世界里，一切都是那么的美好，那么地轻松自在。。。但从梦中清醒后，真实的世界却是那么的冷清，那么地烦燥，那么地无趣。。。每天过着平淡无偿的生活，做的事情都一样，一点新鲜感也没有，真是令人感叹啊。。。
在梦的世界里，一切的幻想都是那么的真实，仿佛就像是发生在现实生活中。。。没有烦恼地过着每一天，每天都与喜欢的人一起度过，梦幻世界与真实的生活太不一样了。。。如果能够选择，活在一个虚构，不存在的世界里，那也不见得是件坏事。。。至少烦恼少一点，压力少一点，快乐多一点。。。
但是，梦与现实只不过是一线之差。。。现实，真实的世界，不会是相同于梦的世界。。。残酷的事实始终是要面对的。。。可悲，可悲。。。
“我不要你解释，我不要你发誓，
我只要你记得此刻你眼里我的样子，
爱我不要解释，爱我不要发誓，
从此刻到世界末日让我们一起把爱，
活成最美最美的钻石。。。”
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cookies! cookies! n more cookies!!!haha...lolx...
cannot prac piano 2day cos elder bro's friends came!!! so in the end go bake cookies! haha...lolx... cornflake chocolate chip raisin cookies! sounds nice ritex! XD...
bakin alot recently due to the fact dat i'm bored at home! but everyday bake then everyday hv somethin new to eat, sumthin new to try...not bad wat...at least i wont starve! haha...but need go buy ingredients! i wanna make cheese cake!!! chocolate cheese cake! raspberry cheese cake! chocolate marble cheese cake!!! those type wif the digestive biscuit as the crust!!! yum yum...nice leh!!! one of these days muz go try n make! lolx...
hope it rains quickly!!! then i no need go swimmin le...if not every saturday aso need go swimmin!!! i lazy dun feel like goin! haiz...but no choice unless it rains! so faster rain!!! i sound so bad n feel so guilty... ... =( ...
人都是自私的吗？不论想什么，第一个想到的都是自己，而不是别人。。。在这个社会里，所有的一切都进行，发展得很快。如果不跟着时代的改变和变化一起进步，那么我们将会被淘汰。为了不要当被淘汰的受害者，大家都不停地自我提升。在这过程中，我们都不会留意到身边人，事，物， 一切所发生与存在的一切。。。也因为这样，他/她/它们都被我们忽略了。。。为什么大家就不能放慢脚步，来关心一下这一切。。。在忙碌的人生里，也许就因为这样，我们就错过了生命里所能够拥有的这一切。。。只想到自己，为了让自己变成一个成功的人，失去的将会比拥有的多。。。这样，值得吗？
enuf of my preachin...lolx...now for how the cookies came abt!
wat u need to make the cookies!?!
mix all the ingredients tgt!!! 
take half tablespoon fulls n roll them into balls! dip in remainin cornflakes...
flatten wif fork!
bake for 12-15 mins n let it cool...
77 cookies!!!haha...lolx...
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finally!!! new layout!!!haha...lolx...
internet laggin!!! 受不了!!!
stop sayin i'm a typical hsewife la! juz becos i like bakin doesnt mean i will be a hsewife!!! so mean lor...sobs...haha...lolx...
juz baked a orange walnut cake 2day...tmr try somethin new...mayb make cornflake chocholate chip raisin cookies! o try making nutty crunchy chocolates aso can...o make brownies!!!haha...tmr then think...
ok enuf crappin... 2day stay at home rot again...as usual... somehow i miss the schooling days leh...cant belief i'm actualli sayin this...but YES!!! at least go 2 sch got somethin 2 do...not like now...everyday at home turnin into fossil...lols...
活在一个空荡荡的时空里，我每天都在发白日梦！不知今天要做什么，明天会做什么，生活里一点色彩都没有。。。单调的人生使我快要发疯了！没有意义地过着每一天，什么意思都没有，真是无趣啊。。。嘿。。。
now...4 time to noe how my orange walnut cake is made!haha...lolx...XD...lame!!! i noe...
ingredients!
cream butter n sugar...aft dat, add in eggs one at a time n grated orange rind...beat well!
sift in flour, baking powder and orange juice until smooth. then, add in walnuts!
place in a rouded bakin tin and bake for 45 mins at 170 degree celcius
finally!!! the orange walnut cake is 'borned'!!! haha...XD...
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2day was a slackin day!!!
whole day slackin...
finally went to buy my baking chocolate...
went to my cousin's hse 2day...
Matthias loves 2 talk! but most of the time, i dunno wat he sayin...haha...lolx... Samuel so cute!!! but he likes to turn ard when u carry him! so carryin him is a great challenge! lolx...
went 2 ikea 2day...dats a realli dull place i find...dun like go there but dunno why my parents n my elder bro like 2 go leh...haiz... so no choice need 2 go there...then we go n eat! dats the onli thing ilike abt ikea...haha...lolx... SWEDISH MEATBALLS n CHICKEN WINGS! XD
sometimes, i find dat my life is so meaningless cos theres nothing i can do... i juz let a day pass simply becos i hv 2 live for another day cos dats my life! life is so lifeless!!! i'm like living juz for the sake of living... boring life...sianz...
在平淡无偿的人生里，没有光彩，没有色彩，就毫无目标地走下去。。。今日不知明日事，也不知要做什么。。。难道我的人生就要这样地过完吗？没有目标，没有希望，似乎像是个没有明天的人。。。
Matthias...
Samuel!
Swedish Meatballs!!! delicious!
Chicken wings!!!
jelly...
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